So I found out last night that my grandma died. Now I'm feeling awful because we were so close to being able to see her and now we won't be able to. I'm wondering how I'm ever going to get over this feeling of guilt. We should have gone to see her first.

Now I don't know what we are going to do. I'm not sure what to do. I know that my aunt said that she was not very coherent the last few days of her life, but that doesn't seem to help me to feel better. I wish we were here in BC under better circumstances.